Braver Soul

 This is tough. sometimes I wake up and cry. how on earth I'm gonna archive and win this whole things. The burden sometimes get heaver then before. Am I going to be better in time? Study plus a job, can I see myself in this situation? Do I open to any changes in my life?

I often wondering how far can I go to reach the end of the road and have to turn back again to face the reality of uncertainty, Ain't it insane and full of confusion? I am modest to myself and fully realized my own stupidity and cruelty have fooled me and drowned me alive. On the whole life is life, it worth to be fight for  or else we'll die. better it still to be lost then to hide.
 

My Declaration by Eliza Bennett

2011. On my 1st Journey Alone to Thailand By Train 31 hours. How far would you go? To find something or someone that you have lose?

I'm gonna be someone, I'm gonna give something,

I'm taking it on, I'm taking it on,
It's gonna be my life, so I'm gonna live each day and each night,
Taking it on, I'm taking it on

'cause I can't keep hiding, no I can't keep hiding, and I can't keep running away
So I'm gonna be stronger, I'm gonna be better made, I'm gonna give everything,
Just to bring me back again.

I'm gonna be a braver soul than this,
I'm gonna jump at all those many chances that i've missed,
I'm gonna live my life beyond all these fears and forms of cowardice that keep leading me on.
I'm gonna shine out like a beacon in the night,
I'm gonna wrap my fingers around the stars tonight,
'cause i'm taking it on, 'cause i'm taking it on...

No I can't keep hiding, no I can't keep hiding, no I can't keep running away
So I'm gonna be stronger, and I'm gonna be better made, and I'm gonna give everything,
Just to bring me back again.
So I'm gonna be stronger, I'm gonna be understood, and I'm gonna give everything
Just to bring me back again!

'cause I can't keep hiding, no I can't keep hiding, and I can't keep running away.


this song really inspired me to dare myself to do something that i never do before. my inner heart dreadfulness and hidden desire. either in job and career, whom i want to become 10 years from now. this song tell me to be not afraid. that i should face my destiny and unseen future with a fix eyes of an eagle looking in front.

food plus love equal satisfaction

I Love You. How often you said and mean it? Does you said it only because it is the word of the famous? Like what Chirs Medina said it. "What are words If you really don't mean them When you say them".

Food are the zealous of the stomach. An ease of the mind and Love is the perfection of all gifts that can't be measure.The 4 month "balik kampung" was so excruciating and full of food passion. Believe it or not I've gain 4 kilos. and have eaten thousand and thousand of yummiest calories.LOL

The wonder

 How many mistake we have made in our life, the wrong doing that comes from our selfishness and egoism of our inner heart, how many choices that the fate have let us to choose?

As I'm waiting for my result in furthering my study. I try to bring my inner self apart between my desire and my destiny. What would it happen if the choices wasn't my choice at all?
Aren't reason is another option? Will I go into this mere fate that will put me in a song chorus of misery.
let it be all  my self to understand that I can't always win. if it is mine? I will going to be there soon.

Traveling to the burdensome weight. This picture shown Me setting alone surrounded by the nature. In my own calmness before within a few day flying to Kuala Lumpur.  I dear this picture of mine. very calm and in peace.

The Remedy

Picture shown my Journey through Melaka. Fantastic!! after none stop working for 24/7.

The remedy by Jason Mraz

Well i saw fireworks from the freeway
And behind closed eyes I cannot make them go away
'Cause you were born on the fourth of july, freedom ring
Now something on the surface it stings
I said something on the surface
Well it kind of makes me nervous
Who says that you deserve this
And what kind of god would serve this?
We will cure this dirty old disease
Well if you've got the poison I've got the remedy

The remedy is the experience.
This is a dangerous liaison
I say the comedy is that it's serious.
This is a strange enough new play on words
I say the tragedy is how you're gonna spend
The rest of your nights with the light on
So shine the light on all of your friends
When it all amounts to nothing in the end.

I won't worry my life away.
I won't worry my life away.

Well i heard two men talking on the radio
In a cross fire kind of reality show
Uncovering the ways to plan the next big attack
They were counting down the ways to stab
The brother in the be right back after this
The unavoidable kiss, where the minty fresh
Death breath is sure to outlast this catastrophy
Dance with me, because if you've got the poison,
I've got the remedy

The remedy is the experience.
This is a dangerous liaison
I say the comedy is that it's serious.
This is a strange enough new play on words
I say the tragedy is how you're gonna spend
The rest of your nights with the light on
So shine the light on all of your friends
When it all amounts to nothing in the end.

I won't worry my life away.
I won't worry my life away.

When I fall in love I take my time
There's no need to hurry when I'm making up my mind
You can turn off the sun but I'm still gonna shine and I'll tell you why

Because

The remedy is the experience.
This is a dangerous liaison
I say the comedy is that it's serious.
This is a strange enough new play on words
I say the tragedy is how you're gonna spend
The rest of your nights with the light on
So shine the light on all of your friends
When it all amounts to nothing in the end.

I won't worry my life away
I won't worry my life away
I won't and I won't and I won't

In the arms of the Angel

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Spend all your time waiting for that second chance
For the break that will make it OK
There's always some reason to feel not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction or a beautiful release
Memories seep from my veins
Let me be empty and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

In the arms of the Angel far away from here
From this dark, cold hotel room, and the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the Angel; may you find some comfort here

So tired of the straight line, and everywhere you turn
There's vultures and thieves at your back
The storm keeps on twisting, you keep on building the lies
That you make up for all that you lack
It don't make no difference, escaping one last time
It's easier to believe
In this sweet madness, oh this glorious sadness
That brings me to my knees

In the arms of the Angel far away from here
From this dark, cold hotel room, and the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie
In the arms of the Angel; may you find some comfort here

Dark Part

                                 In choosing the bad and good, we ought to think vigorously